A Gate In The Wall

I haven't cried over you in so long
I thought I forgot about you
I knocked out walls and built new ones
With new stones and bricks, stronger than the ones you threw at me
Tightly bound with the mud in which my tears before now made
Mixed in with the dirt from my past
But those walls don't matter
My rainstorm doesn't matter
Nothing matters except that you are gone,
But not suddenly-
You were never there, your absence unyielding
I just imagined you would be like promises of you
But you can't build a wall out of promises
Especially ones that are never fulfilled
So why do my tears taste saltier still
Why do they trickle off the walls I've built between you and my happiness
You still have your grasp on me
You still have your unsaid promises
You sill have your blood in me, your anger in my head
Your imagery of hate, your grasp on what I love
You thick hands around my every hope
That you won't die a lonely man
And you won't let go
You'd rather lose it all
Die away in no promises
In no love
In anger
On the wrong side of the gate